Shikiyo-Tenshi

I'll be the death of me

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Dying by Shikiyo-Tenshi, literature

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Dying

I am not a survivor, I Am a weakling. I lay here Dying in my soul. Blood On hands, and my arms. The truth is, who I am on the Inside is someone completely different. But, that doesn't mean I don't care, that I don't love all of my friends. Am I too secretive? Too hidden behind my walls? Too Afraid to let them in, To let them know? Well, Let me tell You now, In my heart I'm dead and nothing can change that.

To Whom It May Concern by Shikiyo-Tenshi, literature

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To Whom It May Concern

Dear Father Who am I to say That this is the only way Except that it is how I feel For the flowing blood is how I heal Dear Mother Who am I to know That this is how I’m supposed to go But from those around me I gain no light And living this life has always been a fight Dear Brother Who am I to take Myself from you, for my own sake Just know that you, I’ve always loved And in my heart you’re way above Dear Hannah Who am I to do What you have always told me not to But the pain, too great for most to see Has slowly taken over me Dear My Love, For you I’ve no words You kept back the thundering herds Of depression as i

Fire Burns by Shikiyo-Tenshi, literature

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Fire Burns

Play not with fire My mother always said, And she was right I fed the fire And when I went to extinguish, The flame went wild But what does a candle know But to flicker back and forth And burn those around But wait, you say "Why shun the fire That once warmed your heart?" And to that I reply "I was distracted by the flame As the darkness surrounded me" My only light in the dark And I turned away To hide the pain And now the forest fire turned candle Burns much too hot As it tries for my attention I love that little candle But the risk is not worth The mistrust and pain So like mother said, Extinguish the flame So not to burn the house

Now That You Know by Shikiyo-Tenshi, literature

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Now That You Know

I've laid my heart bare, I can't seem to stand. I've spilled all my sins, Yet you still took my hand. I miss our closeness And all we went through, But I don't want to tell you All the things that I do. In the cover of dark I spill out my soul, I bring forth the pain That can fill this hole. Now I walk back To my supposed home, I have all my friends, But I feel so alone. And now you know, But do you understand? The pain I inflict When I use my own hand. Writing may help, and talking does too, but there lies the blade, to comfort when I'm blue. I know it's not right But I can't seem to care, Why should it matter When they're my scars to

Memoirs of a Cutter- Prologue by Shikiyo-Tenshi, literature

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Memoirs of a Cutter- Prologue

Have you ever heard the saying "dead people don't bleed"? It's a true statement that many can attest to, but what most don't understand is how dead a person can feel on the inside despite being "alive". We go through our daily routine- numb to the core- and no matter what we do, we just can't seem to bring forth the emotion we know lies somewhere deep down. And it scares us, this numbness, this lack of feeling. So we turn to the blade. We find anything that can pierce our skin. Maybe at first it was just experimentation, maybe it was an anticipated moment. It doesn't matter because we feel the pain, we see the blood and we know that we aren'

Embrace by Shikiyo-Tenshi, literature

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Embrace

The warmth of the sun as it caresses your face The comfort and safety of a mothers' embrace And yet the thrill of a coaster, as on up you go Fearing the fall, as you look down below And you hang off a cliff, but don't dare to look down Heart in one hand, hope he won't let you drown But don't you worry dear, he'll save you at last From the demons of now, or demons of the past Just wait for the one, the one who will try The one who will love, the one who will cry And he'll pull you right up, with a smile on his face And he'll hold you at night, with a tender embrace

Chain Reaction by Shikiyo-Tenshi, literature

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Chain Reaction

Every Monday morn, With a fury in his eyes, He goes straight for Tommy; A demon in disguise. A slam into the sink, A punch straight to his head, But Richie never thought, Tommy would end up dead. The usual beating happened Not a bit out of place, But there lies Tommy now As blood runs down his face. Poor little Tommy boy, Why he was only twelve. How could that bastard Richie? But never did they delve. For if they had, Then just maybe, The full story , Is what we’d see. Every weekday night, With a fury in his eyes, He goes straight for Richie; A demon in disguise. A belt to the back, A punch straight to his head, Mikey never gave a

He, and He Alone by Shikiyo-Tenshi, literature

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He, and He Alone

I sit alone in my room With only Him to talk to. He knows why, That it's only to ease the pain, But He doesn't care. He loves me, and all my hurt. All my sorrow. All my grief. And he revels in it. For he knows that every time, every single goddamn time it takes over, I pull myself a little closer. Closer to Him. And why wouldn't He rejoice? For who is Death without those to take?

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To Whom It May Concern by Shikiyo-Tenshi, literature

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To Whom It May Concern

Fire Burns by Shikiyo-Tenshi, literature

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Fire Burns

Now That You Know by Shikiyo-Tenshi, literature

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Now That You Know

Memoirs of a Cutter- Prologue by Shikiyo-Tenshi, literature

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Memoirs of a Cutter- Prologue

Embrace by Shikiyo-Tenshi, literature

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Embrace

He, and He Alone by Shikiyo-Tenshi, literature

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He, and He Alone

No Way Back by Shikiyo-Tenshi, literature

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No Way Back

I knew, Before I even said the words That it would hurt beyond belief. I knew That I was going to cry, Was going to feel this pain. But never could I have known how much. Pain, Shooting through my soul, Just as it hurt him. Pain Worse than my deepest fears And nightmares. And I was the only one to blame. Hate That is was a necessity, That I had to do it. Hate How it made him feel, How it made me feel. And I wish I could go back. Back To before this began, To a time much simpler. Back To before I stole from him, Before I took what wasn't mine. But there is no way back, and so, we must move on.

Merry Christmas by Shikiyo-Tenshi, literature

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Merry Christmas

The time has finally come, Christmas spirit fills the air tonight. Time for families to join hands once again, and tell all our loved ones we care. And so for those on deviantArt, I give you my love in the form of this visual poem. I send my love to my best friends- tiedyeteddy, TheSunDragonOfRa, and My- Little- Keyblader. And to my other good friends, EderLiru and AngelintheSky. May all your holi- day wishes come true. With lots of love, Shikiyo -Tenshi.

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About Shikiyo-Tenshi

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Sep 10
United States
Deviant for 13 years
She / Her

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Hello to all. I am Shikiyo-Tenshi or as known on Fanfiction Luxord's Xigbar.

Not much to say, besides that I love art. If I think of stuff to add to this I will.

Favorites:

Colour: Black, Red, Green, and Purple

Book: Harry Potter series, Vampire Acadamy series, House of Night series, and others

Manga/Anime: Bleach, Naruto, Full Metal Alchemist, Death Note, Soul Eater, Vampire Night, and others

Any Questions? Call 772-283-STALKER!
Or you could just message me.........

Favourite genre of music: Alternative or Metal
Favourite style of art: Photorealism
Personal Quote: Look beyond that 1st layer, often their true identity is hidden, waiting for someone to look.

Favourite Visual Artist

Salvador Dali

Favourite Movies

Extremely Loud And Incredibly Close, Dr. Horrible, and Repo: The Genetic Opera

Favourite TV Shows

MLP:FiM

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Too many to decide

Favourite Writers

DOn't have any.

Favourite Games

All the AC games, same goes for Halo and CoD

Favourite Gaming Platform

PS3

Tools of the Trade

Pencil

Other Interests

Many things :P

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Shikiyo-Tenshi

Apr 5, 2014

Stop the guilt

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You know those days where you think to yourself "today is going to be a good day", but then it turns out to be really bad because of one thing? That's today. I recently read something someone put up recently about me and I don't get why he won't understand that it was never his fault. I feel guilty everytime I hear about how he feels guilty. Does that even make sense? I told him my reasons for doing what I did, there were family problems and I was dealing with some serious mental stress,  but it was never his fault. Later on I will admit my feelings slightly shattered when I heard of the things he had done, but what he doesn't understand is w

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Shikiyo-Tenshi

Mar 10, 2014

Woah

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You know those days where you're just like: Did I really just do that? Yeah that was my day. Though it was a fun day :) Got to hang out with some awesome friends and it made my month :D No idea why I do these anymore